7 hours, 46 minutes.
Wednesday 28 February 2007
Tuesday 27 February 2007
It is called a 'Happy Dance'...
...because it makes you happy.
Even this is stitched on yellow (pale yellow, even it may seem more like off white in the picture) I am very pleased with the result. (As I don't usually like yellow that much.)
Pieces of information:
- Design: Tribe #1 (Possibly continuing series - otherwise it can be interpreted as First Tribe *grin*)
Designer: myself/ Periphaeria Designs
Fabric: Unknown 32 count hand-dyed yellow Lugana from Silkweaver
Floss: Moonbrand 403 (Avoid this brand if you can! (I have few excess skeins in different colours, anyone interested? *grin*))
And, just to reward myself I foresee some TW stitching in the end of the week - maybe I should try to finish Futurecast?
Monday 26 February 2007
Memes here, memes there...
- Do you ever use all caps when typing online messages?
Heaven forbid, no! - Does it bother you when other people use all caps in their messages?
Abso-friggin'-lutely. Just ask how much. - Do you use abbreviations (i.e. lol, brb, etc.) when typing email messages or text messages?
I use brb when IMing, otherwise no. Sorry to say, but I find it rather silly to use such abbreviations - not to mention that I find it very disrespectful in most cases. - Do you ever receive faxes or other correspondence from a professional office that are typed in all caps? If so, what do you think of that?
Faxes? People still use them? o_O *grin*
Nevertheless, I'd find it extremely unprofessional. - Do you rely on the computer program to catch your typing errors, or do you proofread your material before sending it out?
I trust myself, and I do proofread everything more than once (still, typos occur).
mondaysabitch
1. Last time you ate Kraft Dinner?
(Why we seem to assume that we all live in States?) Never.
2. Last thing you bought yourself for no practical purpose whatsoever?
Define practical purpose. As everything has some purpose, even those ghastly porcelain kitties people buy (they buy them because they think they are pretty and that is a function).
3. Last time you left the country?
19th of February 2007, 8:00.
4. Last time you did a crossword puzzle?
Aeons ago...
5. Last photograph you took?
Do digital pictures count as photographs or do you mean those paper thingies? Allow me to assume that digital pictures count.. respect his authority cuteness.^^
The things you forget... Last night I got sudden urge to play around with my old linocut sheets and realised that I actually have couple of clean, uncarved sheets and one carver.
Now all I need is good enough idea and some time.
By the way
My little mind has been so occupied that I have forgot to add two more exchanges on my ever-growing list.
Exchanges in question are Mystery Exchange at TRN (send-out date April 16th) and Monochromatic Exchange at SBEBB (send-out date 14th of May). I actually know what I will stitch for both exchanges even I don' have the faintest idea of my partner yet and I can promise you: they are not biscornus.
These make it nine exchanges altogether for this year, four of them are already done (I just haven't sent my biscornu or fabric so I haven't strike them yet).
It's a disease.
A Meme - Movies: 102 out of 239
After seeing this in so many blogs I thought that maybe I have to jump in the wagon too... It goes like this:
“It’s been said that allegedly if you’ve seen over 85 movies you have no life. Mark the ones you’ve seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own blog, paste it in and put x’s by the ones that you have seen. Add them up, change the header adding your number, and post it.”(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man’s Chest
(x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane
( ) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
( ) 50 First Dates
( ) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 13 out of 22. (And I thought that I never watch movies! o_O)
(x) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
( ) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 23 out of 43.
( ) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Robots
( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) King Kong
Total so far: 32 out of 66.
( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving Christmas
(x) Flubber
( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 36 out of 90.
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child’s Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Sleven
(x) Ocean’s Eleven
( ) Ocean’s Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremacy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 45 out of 121.
(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) E.T.
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She’s All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
(x) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 58 out of 147.
(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X3
(x) Spider-Man
( ) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Little Mermaid
( ) Freaky Friday*
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Shrek
( ) Shrek 2
Total so far: 64 out of 165.
( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street*
( ) Old School
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(x) Krippendorf’s Tribe
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old Virgin
(x) Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 72 out of 181.
( ) Base-ketball
(x) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
( ) Elf
(x) Highlander
(x) Mothman Prophecies
( ) American History X
( ) Three
( ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
(x) Shaolin Soccer
(x) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
( ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 80 out of 200.
( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
(x) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
( ) Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe
( ) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
(x) Kill Bill Vol. 1
(x) Kill Bill Vol. 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
( ) Kingdom of Heaven
( ) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
(x) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 87 out of 220. (We did see this coming, didn't we..?)
(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks: Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks: The Battle For Endor
(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix: Reloaded
(x) The Matrix: Revolutions
(x) Animatrix
(x) Evil Dead
(x) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
(x) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal
Sunday 25 February 2007
Unconscious Mutterings
I say ... and you think ... ?
:: G.I. Jane
Saturday 24 February 2007
And life carries on...
Only four days to go... 
It's wonderful to know health of my neighbours better than they do themselves: at least my downstairs neighbour's.
Last night I was in bed trying to get some sleep and his snoring kept me awake, which is kind of accomplishment noticing that I had one cat purring loudly next to my ear (I can sleep in purring, I am used to it - but I have never got used to snoring, even I was married with a man who snored, until his tonsils were taken out) and he does live beneath me. I shouldn't hear a thing from his place.
While at it I noticed that downstairs neighbour seems to suffer from sleep apnea. He stops breathing every now and then as he stops snoring for few seconds. (In his case it is at least partially self-induced: he is severely overweight.)
The Ultimate LiveJournal Obsession Test
Snatched from chanda_m
| The Ultimate LiveJournal Obsession Test | ||
| Category | Your Score | Average LJer |
| Community Attachment | 18.28% You've got pals to cheer you up when you're down, but no audience to applaud you... Yet. | 22.6% |
| MemeSheepage | 24.56% Only trendy when it's sufficiently entertaining | 27.87% |
| Original Content | 53.23% Using LiveJournal to express a few strong opinions | 37.85% |
| Psychodrama Quotient | 18.07% Your dark side's safe with us | 16.73% |
| Attention Whoring | 22.73% You do a little dance whenever someone friends you | 20.65% |
Friday 23 February 2007
[Dried solitude, just add water]
Apparently my mind really does something while I am asleep. When I woke up last night (erratic sleep) and first thought was that in order to protect myself I really should initiate friends first policy. While at it my mind also made a decision over it.
(Silly thing in this is that I did the same thing last year about this time... and it actually did work wonders. I was able to resist losing my marbles because of Wolf quite long with that policy - though they happily rolled away from me when I realised that he actually seemed to be in love with me (regardless my silly thoughts of not being interesting enough)... ah, the memories.
The reason for my latest decision (carved in stone - at least for the time being *grin*) is that I, once again, have this dreadful feeling of being fed of humans. I actually avoid any social contact at this moment, with most people I'd otherwise communicate with, because I am tired. Maybe it is in the season, but I really need rest, solitude. There's too much background noise, too much hassle, not enough room to be me and not to get in conflicts.
There is too much noise in me, there is too many things I have to process once again (it seems to me that in order to get over anything I need to process it three times) and there's one snowprincipessa I need to take care of.
Boo.
Wednesday was day for gifts, so even I did have a happy dance and even I got half of something else done I couldn't show you any pictures, and yesterday... I didn't feel very productive. But I have been working on a model, which I am intending to finish before 1st of March. I just find the floss I am stitching it with as major PITA and it slows me down. Another half is finished, but I prefer to show the finished version so you have to wait until it's done. When ever it is done.
Seasonal Dragons RR
There is some progress in RR front. We have formed the final quartet - myself, Leslie, Jenna and Christine - set the dates and took care of all the practical issues. First mailing date is April 15th, so I'll add one dragon to my next month's goals.
But now, back to stitching and watching B5 (if any of you have any extra Marcus Coles hanging around please send one to me 
Thursday 22 February 2007
SBQ: Counts count
Today's
Stitching Bloggers' Question
was suggested by Kathryn and is:What is the smallest count fabric you have ever used? Did you stitch over one? Conversely, what is the largest count fabric you have ever used?Lowest count has been 12 count (aida (YUCK!)) and highest 40 count. And as a side note: Sewandso sells 55 count Kingston linen which I am dying to try...
And while we are at fabric issues it seems to me that my painting problem has been solved and I'll be off to my mother's cottage in August (with her). There I have yard and enough room to mess around with dyes.
Wednesday 21 February 2007
Belated Monday Madness
After weeks and weeks of uninspiring questions MM hit the nerve again, so here it comes!
1. If you could rewrite one pivotal moment in history, good or bad, to make a change, which moment would that be AND what are some of the consequences that you believe might come from that change?
This was the difficult one, and if I hadn't watched B5 last night I hadn't answered to this whole meme. Thanks to Passing Trough Gethsemane for the idea...
I think most of you have heard of crucifixion of certain Yeshua of Nazareth about 2007 years ago? As an outcast in a Christian society I do play sometimes with the idea of what if..?
His goal was to reform Judaism, not to become Messiah of a new religion, but as Romans crucified him he became a martyr and certain power crazed individuals got their possibility to become powerful and control lives of others...
What would Judaism be if Jesus had never been crucified? What would be world's most common religion then? Would we have more religious tolerance, would it be easier for us heathens, people with 'wrong' belief to live? How different would world be without crusades and Christian missionarism?
I am not saying world would be more peaceful place to live as we really can't know, but at least world would be more varied in means of thinking.
It is also possible that no one would never had heard of Islam, which, in my opinion, would actually be a pity. Some may ask how in Earth you say there wouldn't be Islam?... Mohammad studied Judaism and Christianity before he became a prophet, before Gabriel became to him and if you think of it Islam contains major elements from both Judaism and Christianity.
In my opinion world would be more varying religion wise, in my opinion there would be more unique cultures.
I am not against Christianity, I am against the fact that in its name people have been massacred, in its name cultures have been destroyed, in its name has happened so much bad that I am sure that their Messiah cries blood out of agony... because what he preached was love and understanding, not trying to make everyone alike and live in continuous shame.
2. What's the most unusual hobby you have? How did you get started with it?
Define unusual. In the circles I hang around everything I do is completely normal, though it may be less common, but nothing I do is unusual as such. And, for someone who don't share my interests everything I do for fun is unusual...
3. Name one thing for each of the following: Favorite
- smell
- texture
- view
- sound
- taste.
- Musk.
- Velvet.
- Dusk.
- Cat's purr.
- Coffee.
Baltic Sea is still where it used to be
...and it still has ice in/on it during winter.
We ate well, did some shopping and I noticed that if I want to get cheap drawing paper Tallinn is the place. (They have good quality paper even in regular super markets. O_o)
I am also proud owner of a cafetière (makes 8 cups, was about half of the price it is in here), some cumin and garlic cheese (those are not in same cheese, just before you begun to yack), rice flour (that stuff is much cheaper in Tallinn than in here) and some absolutely wonderfully smelling white chocolate with blueberry chunks in it (and dark chocolate with cherries, it just doesn't smell as good). It is also extremely good.
Not very eventful, but nice little trip.
Sunday 18 February 2007
SAT - an epilogue
I did not only reach my goal, but also managed to stitch parts from pages 2 and 5. That dark blob is part of mother's hair.
Due artificial light brown and black are off and, honestly speaking, look a bit odd, but I am quite sure that her hair will look good after her hair decoration and all the additional light spots are in their rightful places.
Unconscious Mutterings
I say ... and you think ..?
:: Limit
1198: sort of X-rated thoughts - once again
Hereby I decide that I have been judged to be too depraved to be worth of being in contact with or even less to be considered as a possible partner anymore. (And there was much rejoicing. *grin*)
I have not heard from that person in almost a week now and even I am a bit simple I am able to draw a conclusion between my last email and his sudden disappearance.
I find it fascinating though how person who says that he's sexually open can find something so trivial to be too much... or maybe, maybe it was once again the fact that I am sweet and depraved. People seem to find it disturbing when someone is cute and sexy, and apparently it also applies with being sweet and depraved. It just provides too much of a contrast in one person.
In the end it's better this way, as he saved the bother of me ending it with the regular I think we are too different yadda-yadda.
Though that would have been true: I seem to be incompatible with men who aren't at least as non-vanilla I am (even though I don't find myself kinky in any way, which is rather odd based on facts). And based on experience it is even better in man is deeper in that swamp than I as they are less judgemental and I get to try new things.
Now... the problem is where to find one suitable (intelligent) example to have and to hold..? And who would actually want to/ could be with me.
Singledom is interesting form of art. Not to mention that it is awfully tiring and uninspiring.
Saturday 17 February 2007
Stitch-A-Thon
Firstly, there's nothing in wrong with me now that I have actually been able to create something again, but concern is much appreciated.
I even decided to confront my dislike towards yellow and begun to stitch one model on pale yellow fabric - and as I thought, yellow fabric+black floss combination actually seems to be just the thing for that design.
But back to business. It is SAT weekend again, and actually I am evil and participate to it in two boards (FG and TRN).
My piece is... Maestro, drum roll, please... Loy Krathong and this is what we have now (oh yes, I had to start it...)
I set a goal of first page excluding those colours I lack (I'm three greens short..).
Let the needles smoke!
Friday 16 February 2007
Can you drown in suppressed creativity?
It is amazing how much having approximately two weeks' break in designing can depress you.
Not because of the lack of designs (I could stop designing right now for two years and still have bimonthly updates with few models...), but because of something you can't actually explain. It's like water gathering when someone builds a barrage in a river... For while it causes no problems, but in the end it causes nothing but destruction.
Creativity can be destructive, and fact is that during my life creativity has walked hand in hand with depression. Either depression has boosted my creativity or vice versa, it has always been there.
At the moment my situation is different: I can't design if I am down. Every single idea I may have is barred somewhere inside of me causing pain... until something changes, until little something comes out and breaks the barrier.
I am not in my most creative phases, but what makes me feel good is that those few "sketches" I have done is last two days are good, they are something I would (and, of course, will) stitch. They are something I'd love to receive as a stitched gift from someone.
And admittedly... if I can't control myself Angi (who is my Birthday Exchange partner, as mentioned before) will get real surprise in July when she receives her birthday gift from me... So, in the end everything is fine: I am having crazy ideas again, there's nothing wrong with me.
Friday's Feast
Feast One Hundred & Thirty One
Appetizer: What sound, other than the normal ringing, would you like your telephone to make?
Have you ever heard of cell phones?
My cells have nice variety of tunes so I can't think of anything.
Soup: Describe your usual disposition in meteorological terms (partly cloudy, sunny, stormy, etc.).
Sunny, with occasional cloudiness. Lately... well, it has been raining, but I think it has been all about blockage in my creativity. (Someone stayed up until 3 am and designed, and feels much better now.)
Salad: What specific subject do you feel you know better than any other subjects?
I am Jack of many trades, so I can't choose.
Main Course: Imagine you were given the ability to remember everything you read for one entire day. Which books/magazines/newspapers would you choose to read?
Bible, both parts. That would give me great weapon against all the fundamentalists who claim to know things better... Great book, but badly misread and understood.
Dessert: If a popular candy maker contacted you to create their next confection, what would it be like and what would you name it?
I don't eat enough candy to be able to answer...
Thursday 15 February 2007
Problem eater cooks: Crêpes
Rice flour crêpes a lá myself aka. Pamper your gluten intolerant friends and loved ones.
10-12 servings:
- 3 dl milk
- 1 dl natural yoghurt
- 2 dl rice flour
- 2 eggs
- 1 dl brown sugar
- ½- 1tsp salt
- 1 tbsp oil
Looks like a real thing and tastes ten times better than real thing.
Valentine's Day came day late!
...but it was well worth the wait, I got mail from two persons!
I have been a bit down lately (as you may have noticed) and this migraine is not making it any better, so both of the items really cheered me up (even I may not sound like it).
Firstly, I got Pay-It-Forward gift from Zalita. She stitched me the loveliest little sachet (with Rhodes hearts, which are on top of my favourite special stitches list):
(Colours are off, but it is winter and sun has set...)
By the way, my PIF receivers... I haven't forgot you, but as you may have noticed art has got a bit on the way... I am in process of creating them in my head and then actualize them. I do know exactly what every single one of you gets - though I may have to change the order or make you all wait a bit longer as I need to get some fabrics and yarn and... stuff. *grin*
Back to business... My Valentine's Exchange (at SBEBB) arrived from Leslie and in addition to stitching me this adorable tiny pillow she spoiled me rotten with goodies (two (fat?) quarters of fabric, Love Tree Ornament from M Designs and roll of ribbon). Without further ado, an exchange:
That red fabric is actually much deeper shade, but, as said before, it is dark and no matter what setting I used when taking the picture it doesn't get any redder than that...
Thank you both!
SBQ: Chart packs
Today's
Stitching Bloggers' Question
is:Do you like to buy "chart packs" that include charms, buttons, and/or beads or do you prefer to gather all materials yourself?I have only bought one chart pack in my life (Catnip Kitty Fob), so I have to base my answer on almost non-existent experience: it depends on the price of said chart pack, do I have any of the needed materials in my stash, how easy it is to acquire charms etc. separately and is it available as a chart-only.
Wednesday 14 February 2007
Foto Pherrets
Our word for this week is: Red
My frequent readers know about my chili farming... this is a close-up of my last haul of chili paprikas from last autumn.
Late night with ranting blogger
I have issues with the fact that people have issues with the fact that I am reserved.
What makes it worse is that they usually claim that they have no issues with it, but still they want me to relax, chill a bit...
Oh, how I hate dislike humankind sometimes...
I know why I am reserved, I know it makes me look anal, but I also know that I will never be able to remove it completely.
What makes it so friggin' wonderful is that those people who know me and my history never question my self-defense system. And they know it only because they took the time and were willing to accept the fact that I am reserved - and noticed that in the end I am not reserved at all. I just need time.
Sometimes I do understand Anton Szandor LaVey's idea of making humans for your own use. (Making Humans For Fun And Profit... *grin*)
Tuesday 13 February 2007
Migraine stitching
It has been a while since previous Ezzy update... almost two months to be exact, but today it got a bit closer to finish.
(Once again the colours are bit off.)
This is just suitable project for migraine (had an allergic reaction (apples - it happens if I don't have any breaks in eating them every now and then) yesterday, and this probably came from that) days. Easy, but quite many colour changes (though those similar shades are a bit annoying).
Monday 12 February 2007
Egypt's border in progress
SAL day, day for Egyptian Sampler with Christine.
There is one annoyance in the chart so far and that is right under the corner motif (square) from where sides begin. All the other gaps are four stitches, but first ones are only three.
You may guess who had to frog some "ladders" today because she thought that the chart is logical?
Yup, that was me ( Though it was my bad because I didn't look at the chart carefully enough, but anyway...) hence only minor progress.
There will be no update next week, I am going to Estonia with my mother in 19th.
Take a blog. Sprinkle some X-rated content over it...
One complains how she is single, but I am also getting the picture of my pickiness.
I really seem to demand a lot... but I can't help it that when man says that one form of penetration is out of the question because of his issues (if he is 100% straight let him be, but why I can't be that depraved pervert I am if I choose him?) it is a real turn off. I just don't want to eat oatmeal for the rest of my life... I don't want to make love just to have kids. If my soul and heart love I need to be able to enjoy also the physical form wholeheartedly.
Talking of men... I confessed my crush to mr. X yesterday, and even I thought it would have made things easier (though in certain way it did) it didn't as his answer was not really no nor yes, but something from between... and in light of recent incident he still has something to keep his status in my head: I do like a man who is not complete vanilla...
Though there are certain somewhat negative aspects in him too.
Life would be easier if it was simple.
Sometimes, just sometimes, I think it would be easier for me to be a man as apparently intelligent, overly sexual, extremely sensitive woman is not a being fit for living... she is just too perfect to live, or too depraved to live. Or too something to live.
/me dislikes the situation she is in.
Sunday 11 February 2007
Unconscious Mutterings
I say ... and you think ... ?
:: Me (*grin*)
Construction manual...
Sometimes I could marry myself, or rather: sometimes it feels that I am only one I don't scare off with being me and hence I should marry myself.
Admittedly there are those I haven't scared off (actually I have been thinking of an entry about kindred souls and the other view(s) for those for some time... I just need to find the words to be able to write what I want to say), but still the problem remains... they may love me, respect me, and they, or some of them, may actually still think that I am like every woman should be (I have read these exact words not so long ago), but for reason or millionth we haven't been able to make it. Anyway...
In certain sense being single, pulling different doors gives me quite much. At least it makes me think... Excerpt from one email I wrote:
On building the houses...Can you say that I am getting fed up with dating game? Or that I would love to have someone to gush about my artistic endeavours..? Or just to have the grey everyday life... And what's funny... it hasn't been even eight months and it feels like eight years.Lately I have been thinking quite much about relationships, dos and don'ts, the differences, the similarities and what is the secret to make it work.
I am still looking for the answers (and probably won't never cease to look for them - it comes with my character), and admittedly I have confronted surprising things in me.- - -
I read yesterday a sentence with which I agree: you don't fall in love, you grow in it.
Love, like relationships is/are like a house. Little things are the cement which keeps the tiles together. Those little things define will the house stay put when storms come or will it fall to pieces.
Roof maybe ripped off, windows may break, but if the walls are still up nothing is lost. If the residents are willing to take the time and fix the house they once built.I want to build those walls to last. I want to build those walls sturdy. I want to know that they will stay put when storms hit.
I am tired of drama, I am tired of falling in and out of love, I am tired to have no one to share my life with.
I want to have it all, but I also want to have it good. I want to love the house after living in it 20 years, too.G-d gives us the possibility to build houses which last, but he also gave us free will which leads to the fact that most people build their houses from sticks on bare ground.
Every day is a new sheet, everyday we have the chance, and every day we make the decisions which will affect on our future. I once built houses on bare ground, from sticks. Since then I have learnt that it does not work.Nowadays I want to build the house on solid ground, mold good foundation and use only the best cement and tiles to build the walls. Sometimes I doubt myself, but I know it is the only way... sometimes it is lonely to be one of the few who want to build the house to last.
I have built and demolished too many houses during my lifetime and I would love to finally take the time to build the last house I will ever live in, build it with respect, patience, love, honesty and all the good things... I know there will be few hits to my fingers while hitting the nails and there will be some minor arguments on choosing the wallpaper, but it is life.I just want to live silent, peaceful, everyday life in a house I have built with someone special.
I just can hope that it gets easier when spring comes... or that I get lucky. Really lucky.
Happy dancing on roses...
I think the word is addiction...
Information:
- Designer: Yours truly/ Periphaeria Designs
- Design Ring Of Roses #1
- Fabric: 28 count Mulberry Cashel Linen
- Floss: DMC 3689
Friday 9 February 2007
On dyeing
Thank you for the comments on my dyed thingies. There are some little details I'd like to let you know:
- I am an artisan of textile designing and manufacturing (my 'major' was weaving (designing and manufacturing) though) by education and therefore dyeing was part of my education. I have spent good part of three years in the dye 'lab' (there was only one place I spent more time in and that was our 'weavery' (hall of looms)).
- I won't write a tutorial, even Angela asked for it, because the process differs between brands and between colour types (there are hot dyes, cold dyes, machine dyes..). Only advices I give you are: prewash the item and trust yourself. (The dye will attach the fiber even if you made a mistake. The result just may be something you never expected it to be - and sometimes it is a good thing.)
- Dyeing is actually very, very easy, you just need the courage to try it. Dye packets contain very good instructions (at least Dylon dyes do) so if you know how to read you know how to dye.
Why I don't use subtitles?
Recently I have been watching DVDs while stitching, and today I realised once again why I disable subtitles every time... I do it because it seems to me that translators don't either speak Finnish or English fluently (and some of them don't seem to speak either..). For crying out loud even I could do better translations with my elementary school English... but then, they provide form of entertainment.
Thursday 8 February 2007
t3h fl0ss
Dyed, rinsed, soaked, washed, boiled, dried... and probably not running anymore.
All mine...
I have a cunning plan..
Now that I have fabric for Loy I itch to start it (can you guess that I am happy with the fabric? (No, not just happy, I am thrilled as it is exactly like I wanted it to be.)), and I had an idea: I could have it as my official Stitch-A-Thon piece...
This is how we justify new big projects before finishing any of the old ones...
Thoughts on diet and fertility
Today I 'ave mostly been... jumping for joy because my latest cycle was only 28 days and I have no swelling or pains.
As you may have guessed I have done some reading about gluten intolerance. It may cause, for example, (I won't even get into fatigue and lack of energy which I used to have all the time when I was still eating "like normal people") infertility.
Those of you who have been around since times of Sol may have noticed that since my diet got to what it is now I have been complaining less and less about my PCOs... because since I had to change the way of eating my beloved syndrome has got better, at least based on the signs my body is giving (for example my cycle is nowadays 28-32 days instead of 70-90 days it used to be and I live with much less pain (I don't get it how I was able to function in those times when I had abdominal pains (and we talk about pain in here) almost all the time)..).
Now, some, if not most, women with this syndrome find some help from low-carb diet, and therefore I would like to know how common gluten intolerance is among PCOs women compared to average... as low-carb also means less, if any, grains which contain gluten.
I also find it interesting that gluten intolerance can cause DM I... as PCOs predisposes you to DM II. I do know that DM I and DM II have different bases, but still they are both forms of diabetes. And in PCOs diabetes is actually somewhat caused by abnormal insulin production and not that much of the possible obesity (every PCOs woman is not obese, the official percentage is about 50%)...
Admittedly I may be seeing connections (I have said something about this before) in places where there is none, but still... it is interesting.
And after all this thinking I need some caffeine. Ta-ta for now.
SBQ: Retreats
This week's
Stitching Bloggers' Question
was suggested by Danielle and is:Have you ever been to a stitching retreat?No. I have been playing with the thought every once in a while and I am not quite how I would cope in such as I have issues with generic females (or rather the generic 46 XX has issues with me..).
If I could choose my company I would love one. Otherwise...
Wednesday 7 February 2007
It was a colourful day
Pun intended.
I did some dyeing. Or should I say that I did quite much of it? Ten skeins of floss and over one square meter of fabric to be exact...
Misc. pieces (from left: two Kingfishers, two Arabian Nights and one Windsor Purple which has been soaked quickly in AN):
I also dyed the fabric for the exchange, but I won't show it just yet.
Now... I will head to bed... I am wasted.
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