I don't know why, but I have had a flashback phase lately. In theory I have nothing to complain about, they are flashbacks of happy moments, but I'm not sure do I want to have them because those moments are from past relationships... things I had already forgot (yet things that made me happy, and which in a way make me happy even now).
Interesting thing is that none of the flashs is older than three years. It's soon three years from the day when Dan, finally, moved out and a bit less from the day when I got hooked up with Abhi.

I have also had some odd dreams, which, thinking of it now, probably share the origin with flashs.
Firstly the basic pattern of the dreams, then an explanation... I go back to school, the teacher is some of my past teachers (so I assume that the idea is behind the teacher, not the person). The thing is that in every dream of this brand I have been out of school since last August/ September and the teacher always nag why I haven't been at school and how you are not allowed to do so without an extremely good reason. My answer is always the same: you didn't seem to miss me though, you might have wanted to contact me or someone close to me...

My conclusion is that either the school of hard hits wants me back or I want back in it. I have been out of the relationship game since last summer, firstly because losing Wolfie hurted - badly (he's still a sore spot), and secondly, because I met N. who kind of freed me from looking for a relationship as he provided most things you ger from a romantic relationship - excluding the romance part...
Anyway, the school of life, timeline of my disappearance, flashbacks... someone wants to go back to school, someone wants to find someone wonderful, right? (Admittedly my family nerve has been tickling lately, so if I just blame my loudly ticking biological clock and forget the facts?)

But I also acknowledge the facts: at this moment I couldn't concentrate on a relationship (who am I fooling? I could, I would just prioritize) because all the energy I have goes on breathing... literally.

Dragon of Hope; aka. Greetings from Republic of Insomnia

Insomnia, friend of us who'd like to be close to someone dear who's far away.... *sighs*

Well, at least I did something productive and finished backstitching of my dragon. May I introduce: Dragon of Hope with Pacific Ocean view.

Info:

• Designer JL Aikman-Smith from Dragon Dreams Inc.
• Freebie
• On 32 count hand-dyed Silkweaver opaslescent Inspiration
• Two over two
• Colour conversion by me

If I had done this month ago it'd have been Atlantic view... but then I "met" certain someone, *coughs* (Yes, Wolfie), and well, as he resides in Pacific area do I actually need to say more?

And some symbolism:

Red

...Protective powers of the color red against evil influence were common belief.
Objects, animals and trees were covered in red paint, warriors painted their axes and spear-catapults red to endow the weapons with magic powers. Some of the Australian aborigines abide by this custom up to the present times. Neolithic hunters and Germanic warriors used to paint their weapons and even themselves in blood of slain animals.Roman gladiators drank blood of their dying adversaries to take over their strength.
In other cultures, the newly born were bathed in blood of particularly strong and good looking animals.
Red painted amulets or red gems, such as ruby or garnet, were used as charms against the"evil eye". Wearing a red ruby was supposed to bring about invincibility. Red bed-clothes were customary in Germany up to the Middle Ages as protection against the "red illnesses", such as fever,rashes or even miscarriages (famous example is the painting Arnolfini Wedding by Jan Van Eyck, dated 1434).

Btw,

my Silkweaver order is shipped and my little card had to pay ~$4 more because of the shipping fees. Blah. But then... stash! Come to momma!

What next?

Biscornu for an exchange, so no pictures before it's received. This is my first biscornu ever so thumbs up everyone!

Fairy name generator, runes etc.

From The Original Fairy Name Generator:

"Your fairy is called Chanter Saturndancer

She is a trouble maker.
She lives in church yards and places of the dead.
She is only seen when the bees swarm and the crickets chirrup.
She wears silver colours and white feather down. She has delicate pale pink wings like a cicada. "

"Notice this:

She lives in church yards and places of the dead."

Ok, anyone remembers what I wrote yesterday..? And

"She is only seen when the bees swarm and the crickets chirrup"

I've born in July...

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Runes.

PAST

Lagu
Water

Changing of moods. Romance and companionship. The fickleness and unpredictability of nature.

PRESENT

Rad
Wheel

Thor's chariot. Travel. A journey undertaken. An emotional and physical rite of passage.

FUTURE

Yr
Yew Tree

Arrow to target. Tree of life defeating all else. Hitting a goal in spite of obstacles along the way.

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To sound like a proper lunatic... these fit.