Last night I had 'interesting' experience. I was thinking about what went wrong in my marriage...
I realized that I never felt needed, almost everything was more important than I was - and when things finally changed I couldn't care less anymore...

For first time in my life I really felt physically sick because of sadness in me. But when I fell asleep I slept better than I have slept in ages. And I saw very interesting dream about one person... It confused me as I trust my dreams... but I am also quite happy because of that dream. Only time will tell how 'true' that one was.

The haze I have been living in this week is gone now. I feel good again. :)