Yes, it's me. Few changes in my life since last entry.
"Indian affair" ended. And I was right why things happened how they happened when we broke up. I met him yesterday first time since we broke up. Now I know most of the facts, but still I don't understand him. Now I just feel pity for him as he loved me, loves me and misses me like hell. It's always touching to have someone crying in your arms like a child... So naked mentally.
It's so hard sometimes to be "always" right, it's hard to understand basic human behaviour and know that someone left you even he wouldn't like to do it. It's hard to see someone bursting into tears because you told that you know why A, B and C happened.
These words from him make me cry, but they make the memory of him beautiful - and painful:
"I love(d) you. I love(d) you so much."
"You were best thing which happened to me in years"
"I still miss every little thing."
It was hard evening but it helped me. I also know that it's not what happened to him. Because now he knows that I don't hate him and that I am not mad at him.
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And... celebration time! I am free at last! Divorce papers came few days ago. I've been miss Peri since 31. 3. 2005.
