Operational plan, part 1

In order to make coming months easier for me I have set a goal:

1. in September I can buy some stash as in September I pay the last part of my biggest amortization off.
2. In October I can get some more stash as then I also pay last part of other debt.
3. November and December I can do what I want with the money (I need clothes by then, luckily I have hoarded used clothes in bigger sizes for Tiny so he should be ok - and I know where Salvation Army's outlet store is *grin*. And AS I start studying (I have decided that I will be accepted *grin*) I need to buy a new laptop for school so I need some money for that (I plan to get some from Santa in addition to that).)

and

4. in January 2015 I start saving money to pay up one last debt that is screwing things... It should only take a year at its worst.

And I already know what I want...

I have drooled after PINN's "Ganesha - The Hindu God of Wisdom" since I first saw it few years back. I saw it stitched on fiery orangey and red hand-dyed fabric and I just knew I had to get it.
They have several Ganeshas and some day I may justify buying this Ganesha too.
It's frigg*** expensive, but.... PRETTY!

(Admittedly I have two auto ships (cheap ones, sans floss and fabric) and I have a deal with Jenna I am paying each month. More about NEW stash when I have started all my crazies.)

Why?

It dawned on me in last November that in order to get a job in the profession I am planning to get a degree of I need squeaky clean background. And by starting clearing it now it will be ok when I, hopefully, graduate. (I need to apply first. *grin*)
There is also that minor thing that I want to offer Tiny things I can not at our current financial status - which would remain the same as now would I return to my old job - and I have very lame dream to actually be able to save up the down payment, get a loan and find our *own* home for Tiny and me at some point.
But all this means that I have to count cents and prioritize heavily now and focus on my goal. (Now, when it is financially easier as toddlers aren't financially demanding... yet.)

/methinks that thyroxine helped me to grow some big balls. And I love it.
Even I can tell you that my bank account at this point is a really, really sad sight. But I think this is also helping me to lose weight, I'm buying less bad foodstuff and stitch and drink tea through the evening opposed to... finding sugar highs. And despite not having weighed myself since.... erm.... long time ago, it seems that my shape has changed slightly which should mean some lost grams.

1998: Giveaway reminder, Very Good Things and stuff

First I would like to remind all my stitchy friends about the AMAZING giveaway here at my little blog.

Very Good Things

As some of you may have noticed I have been celebrating certain event in near future at Facebook and also in form of a little ticker on top of my blog...

We found a way to get reasonably priced tickets for Mr. Wonderful (as for some funny reason tickets are cheaper when purchased from here - of course purchasing them online always helps) and... He is coming home for the holidays!

Though the bad news is that he has to return Spain in January to wait for The Papers. Gah. And from there He travels to Nigeria for a while, luckily His brother arranges the tickets for Him.
Which is good news, and in the end we pay for all the plane tickets (Spain-Finland-Spain, Spain-Nigeria-Spain) 80€ which is very good news. (Rough estimation of the whole cost, had we paid them ourselves, is appr. 1100€ ($1,621)...)

Knowing that He is coming home has made me go ga-ga. Had I the money I would redecorate whole apartment for holidays, but I guess it's lucky that I don't have the money, so I have just bought little things... like gorgeous satin bedsheets.

But I am waiting to cook Him all the Finnish Yule specialties and I guess we will have more food than we need when I am done.

Dear Santa

I have been a good girl (ermm... well, relatively) and all I want for Yule is my Wonderful and this:

All I can say is:

I got curious and just checked that the design, accessory pack and postages would be only 45.5€! I may be tempted... even more if I get more money on 15th than I anticipated (I will get rest of my holiday pay (actually rest of the payment for returning from your yearly holiday - funny term, and thought) in addition to my wage) - but that would mean getting 1300€ (because there are bills to pay and stuff) and I really don't think it will happen (I am paid twice a month, which makes it highly unlikely to get such sum after taxes even though I get rest of my holiday pay).

Spain is not all THAT bad

After everything nasty I may have said or thought about Spanish system I wish to voice out that there is at least one good thing in there (in addition to my Wonderful): money transfers through bank from .es to .fi are much faster than from .fi to .es - though it is also more expensive in there.

Basically money transfers within EU should cost only as much as they would cost within the country of origin because, like people and things, money should be able to move freely within Union area. BUT when I make EU transfer at bank counter it is 30 cents and when the same thing is done in Spain it's 3 € - admittedly it is also faster, though I was just thinking that transfers to Spain may take three days (instead of appr. 1 from there to here) because Spanish banks want to make money with the interest as it is stated that EU transfers can, but should not exceed (otherwise one is applicable for some kind of refund, afaik), take as long as three days.

Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that local banks wouldn't do the same thing, but obviously they like to play that trick with local transfers: I noticed one day that even my pay came ~00:45 and all the bills which were due that day were taken from my account, but still showed in my "Confirmed Future Payments" until 8 am when bank day started.
And transfers between banks (companies, not locations) take 1-2 days even though the payments could be made instantly with modern technology.
But then, I don't pay much service fees so I don't mind that too much. As long as I get my money.

But, now I have to head to get our satin sheets from the post office. See you later. ^^

To shop or not to shop?, WIP and All Things Pink

(No, you haven't lost your eyesight: my blog is PINK!)
I do have certain amount of guilty conscience because of my stash shopping lately, though I try to convince myself that I have been good last 5-6 months - and then I know that there probably isn't any money for it in coming weeks/months.
Mr. Wonderful went to Spain to get certain documents (which he can't get through the embassy, for whatever odd reason) we will be needing soon and he just found out that what he thought to be expense of couple of tens of euros at most costs 267€ (add plane tickets, accommodation, general expenses etc. to that..).

Well, these are really one-time expenses, but big when you least expect them, even more when you have a small income and bills to pay.

Regardless, just to shock you...

a WIP

I am stitching this to my mother as a surprise so it should be done and framed when she comes back from her cabin.

I am stitching this on white fabric, regardless the nice pink tone the fabric has in the picture...

PINK

I know, I know, but lately I have noticed a rather interesting phenomenon in my way of interpreting colours: all the sudden all kind of candy and yucky colours have become very pleasant to my eyes... canary yellow, turquoise, bright pale blue, pink, young grass green... you name it.
I still enjoy my old favourites, those dark and vibrant ones, and on the same time I my dislike towards muted, "dirty" colours has increased.

I guess it is a mental thing (I am mental, yes ) and I guess Mr. Wonderful is causing it.

I am not complaining, I just find it interesting.

Still alive

As you may have guessed I have spent my days lately by working and sleeping and sleeping and working. And haven't got much stitching done, less surprisingly.
To make it much more depressing I hadn't realised that tomorrow's pay is still affected by my long leave so I won't get much which means that I don't have enough money to pay my rent, which is already late. So, either someone borrows me loads of money or I have to beg my landlord for a delay until 27th, when I will get huge wage (92 hours/ 2 weeks plus evening pay plus saturday evening pay plus overtime).
Maybe not huge, but around that sum I have gotten used to get, which would be enough to pay rent and bills etc..

But on the good news I heard ages ago that Linda has received my little pat on the back: it took less than two whole days to travel from here to there (of course it was insured!) so everyone is happy (Linda has already started her Noah's Ark kit and I am eagerly waiting for images ).

Mr. Wonderful still thinks that I am amazing (and that I will make a good wife when that time comes (no, we are not engaged or anything, but I think that reveals quite much about his intentions),  and we actually have our six months anniversary in Saturday.
No official celebration as I am at work and he's not here anyway. Bummer.

A Happy Dance! O.o

I am shocked.

This is yet another part of the complimentary design series of stitcher's addictions and I will publish it in some of these days, when I am inspired enough to prepare the file it is now available for download at Periphaeria Designs.

Tidbits:

• Design: Stitch-A-Long Addicts Anonymous
• Designer: Lady Periphaeria of Periphaeria Designs
• Fabric: 32 count unknown Belfast linen from Silkweaver.
• Floss: Anchor 1206

Even though Addicts and Anonymous are slightly misplaced (I didn't spot the misplaced Addicts before I was half done with Anonymous and with Anonymous I had already frogged the A once and when I noticed the other error I just decided to leave it) I am very happy with the outcome even though I wasn't completely sure about my colour choices when I started stitching this earlied today (well, if the design is amazing you can't ruin with bad colour choices, can you? ).

Life in general

I haven't been feeling very good lately, for various reasons like being very short of cash and therefore not eating very well, getting used to lower dose of sertraline (I am on 100mg now) and missing Mr.Wonderful.

Money: I have been unemployed from the beginning of August and I am still waiting for the first allowance payment from SII - I should get the money in next week if all goes well and then I can apply for the rest of the money SII owes me, after that I hope to actually have enough money to buy some new clothes and stock some food items for November (so we can hide in bed whole time *evil grin*).

Mr.Wonderful: is slaving his (gorgeous) a** off, working 7 days a week to get the assignment done in time (if they don't get everything done on time they have to stay there longer until everything is done) and living in a hotel without internet connection so he has no opportunity to send me emails in our regular pace (which is daily). In addition to that the phone lines in $country suck so even he does call to me we can't talk too much because of the lousy line - but at least I can hear his voice, that is what makes me go on - and the hope of getting him here when he returns from Africa (if he works seven weeks seven days a week he should be able to get two weeks off as he plans).

So, everything is basically fine, but I am just suffering from withdrawals of money and Mr. Wonderful.

Travel bug

I have found a great reason to have a job, not to buy any more stash for a while and to launch a buttload of new designs...
I want to take the jet plane and go to have a cup of coffee with someone. (And make his phone bills a bit smaller... )

Once again I am sure that this is an insane idea to many, but I need to do it, no matter the outcome, because it feels like the right thing to do.

Poverty? Not really.

In Finland person whose income is less than 900 euros/ month is considered as a person living in poverty. That also means that I am considered as one (though during the course period I am not, as my income is whopping 910 euros/ month (I don't consider PD as a source of income yet as I don't withdraw the money on Paypal account on bank account to be used by me - I may buy some new stash with PD's money every once in a while, but I consider that as a stitching wage and a reimbursement from those supplies Lady still gets from me), thanks to the financial incentive from SII).

I find it questionable as poor is not a word I would use of myself. Think of it: I have two working computers, I have a broadband connection, I own three cell phones, two PDAs, two digital cameras, TV and all the "regular" devices, dishwasher and loads of other household appliances, multifunction laser printer, I live in a cozy apartment, I have food without begging or trusting food aid (and I couldn't use their stuff anyway: wheat, pork... you get the picture) because I have money to buy my food, my cats eat expensive pet store food... AND I can afford little creature comforts like new stash and visit to a hairdresser every now and then.

I can't see my poverty.
Admittedly I have problems with making the ends meet in case I need new clothes or shoes, but for me it's not a sign of poverty, but a sign of spending too much on unnecessary stuff. (Luckily my mother tends to give clothes-on-request gifts and my father, when he gives gifts, usually gives money - not much, but any extra money is good.)

Partly my personal lack of poverty is thanks to our welfare system as if I had to pay for my medication, even the part left paid after SII pays their part, I would be poor as -100€/ month may not sound much, but with income this low it's 13,5% of my average monthly income (before rent)... But that is the reason for the system to exist: to prevent poverty and social problems related to it - and of course, in the long run it's way cheaper for social welfare to pay for the medication of us, financially less fortunate, than pay for the consequences (i.e. long hospitalizations and unecessary retirements - though I would end up suffocating to death, eventually, without my medication..).

I can't still see my poverty, and admittedly I can't understand how anyone in my situation can claim to be poor, even there are people who claim that they have no money to do anything - and still they find the money to buy tobacco and alcohol...

Though, I know that person in my situation should also be withdrawn from the society, sick, have drinking or drugging problem and be unable to do anything useful, due the hopelessness caused by a long period of unemployement and low income... I don't even drink and I try to take care of my physical and mental health and when my asthma gets under control I am able to work full-time.
Maybe I just need to always do what I love to do, prove them wrong. (I'm such a show off anyway.)

Incoming exchange and Old Lady

I got mail from Julianne, and believe or not, this is my Monochromatic Exchange.

She decided to use this floss as it has three of the colours I listed under my favourites when signing up. She has finished my item as a heart shaped tin and its bottom (inside, duh) is padded so I can stick needle in there if necessary.
Beautiful, isn't it?

Old Lady

Good things happen to good people, but sometimes those happen also to a bit less good people. (Or maybe good things happen to good cats?)
My father and his significant other found a buyer for their apartment which means that I get some euros as an advance inheritance (he made a promise to me and my sister some time ago as our brother has got his share already) and my father promised to give me some of the promised amount in advance (actually I have already got some of it in advance for HH's second vet bill) now. This means that HH and I head to the vet in other part of the city tomorrow, she gets checked and probably vet draws some blood to check how HH's body is doing, ie. will she survive through the anesthesy (I think she does, as she has been anesthetised twice during last month and she's still alive and kicking), and we go through the options for her ear (I say: "operate it!"). After that we'll book another appointment, and the good thing... it should happen this week.
So, Old Lady needs to live in discomfort for a while, but only few days. (By the way, even she hates the sock she seems to be happier with it. She's not scratching her ear as much she used to and she seems to be able to concentrate on sleeping again.)

That extra money also means one thing: new clothes! (Which means sewing related happy dances in here as I have decided to rather spend my money on clothes which actually fit and which are of my preferred colour -> make them myself.)

And...

It's suprising how people get used to being lied to, and when someone tells them good truth they don't believe it.
I had a chat with mr. X. today and until now he had thought that I am kidding with the claim of having a crush on him. Or maybe I had it.. I am not sure, tenses are so difficult when it comes to things like this.

Maybe he'll learn to understand me a bit better now. (Excluding my taste for certain type of men...*grin*)

Greetings from the Land of Ouch

Monochromatic item is finished and ready to be mailed and my mother borrowed me some money so I can get HH to the vet if her ear looks bad tomorrow (if the vet has time - though there is another vet in the vicinity..). Money, which I will pay back when I can. Maybe I could transfer my ADSL bill to be paid in end of June instead of... whenever (it should come any day now) and pay some back to her.

Still, all this means that I have to think carefully every single thing I buy, every single thing I eat.

In the way it's good that I don't have much of an appetite at the moment. It's easier to eat cheap when you don't care of what you actually eat because you eat only just to keep on going.

On another matter

It's rather silly.
Few days ago I swore to myself that I won't be bothered by men before autumn and, of course, someone asked me out today.

No, I won't go. The guy was tediously boring. Which made it even worse was that he assumed that I can't see what he was after. I knew he'd ask me out sooner or later after his second sentence. (He also proved, once again, that most Finnish men just don't get me. They don't understand a word I say even we speak the same language.)

You know, this is the third time I swear I will stay away from men for some time... First time I met Dan two weeks after deciding staying single until I am 24 (I separated when I was still 24, by the way), and second time I met Wolfie about two weeks after swearing that I will stay single next six months. (Do you see a pattern here?)
Apparently I think that third time is a charm, and, it either proves my point or doesn't.

The reason which lead me to this is that dating game is too harsh for little me and I need some time to just sit at the bench and look at others playing it. Maybe gain few acquintances, maybe a friend or two on the way... And come back to the field when the evenings become chilly. Come back when I am sure, when I have strength. When I have lived whole summer alone, first one in a decade or so. (I am a habitual relationship person. I seem to always find someone when I really want, even if it's not good for me.)

This is also a decision of healing soul. I have got my monster dreams back, and in my case those are always a good sign. Last nights I have been hanging out with werewolves (I know where that leads to) and fighting with vampires. Vampires which aren't afraid of cross, but stumble away when you recite Shma. And I know what that is saying to me... (but, more about that elsewhere, later.)

But, I hadn't bought this if I didn't had no faith in remarrying some day. With whom and when is the open question.

Nggggggh...

I so love this... not.
Because I am not allowed to take my allergy meds my body has begun to misbehave. My muscles ache, my back aches, one part of my right foot has lost its tactile sense, I itch, I am restless (that is more restless than normally), my skin is becoming spotty... All this just because I am not allowed to take my antihistamines.

It took three hours from me to fall asleep last night because of all this (even I was extremely tired), which means that I have slept whopping 2½ hours. I feel like... you know.

/me wants her Xyzal...

Saga of PayPal...

...continues.
Part N: their site contains inaccurate information. PayPal account's owner and the owner of the bank account you withdraw funds to don't have to be same person/ institution (at least when you transfer to a Finnish bank).
I transferred money to my mother about two weeks ago, and now, when she came back from her cottage, she said that my transfer had got through (I used her credit card at Sewandso (as they don't have PayPal option) to buy some fabric and things for PD).

So, in the end that downgrade was unnecessary.

In general: isn't life a ball? (And SAT update will follow after I get back from the hospital.)

It's spring alright...

...as I am having a nasty itch. I wouldn't have it if I was allowed to take my allergy meds, but as coming week begins with prick test and continues with epicutane I will happily itch and feel miserable until Friday. (Oh yes, another set of tests.)
I have also realised why grains are such a problem: it's all about my pollen allergy. It explains even my corn issues. (And I am not gluten intolerant. It's all allergic: I can eat wheat (without upset stomach, itching stills) if I take maximum dose of allergy meds - this has been tested with an innocent pizza which gave its life for science. Long live scientific experiments.)

PayPal

...or PayPälli as I lovingly call it in Finglish (you can translate it to PayIdiot as pälli is slang expression for an idiot).
They downgraded my account while I was out voting (parliamentary democracy is wonderful thing), I took an advantage of that and withdraw pile of virtual euros. Now... we just have to wait and see will that money actually move to where it's supposed to move. (And, I was pedantic little b*stard and gave whole $FIRSTNAME $2NDNAME $3RDNAME $SURNAME litany to the bank account holder (or what ever) box. Now they can't claim that the name doesn't match. )
Hopefully it happens soon as I Lady P. really needs to buy an external burning drive (my Lady's laptop's CD burner is getting old and blind) as I she needs to take backups of PD's info. (Currently I just move my Lady just moves her backups to bits_2_whole's (nerdy sisters ) server.)

PayPal, can you actually love it?!

Once again I love my PayPal account... not.
It just occurred to me that in order to withdraw funds from Periphaeria's PayPal account to my bank account owner's name in both of them have to match, and as both of my bank accounts are under my name (simply: Periphaeria Designs is not a company - yet - therefore I can't open a business account for it (and I can't make it a company before I can more or less live with its profit - hence the freelance status) and my PayPal is under PD's name we have a problem... so, I had to request downgrade from Business to Premier.

And I just thought of something... as they want the names to match will $FIRSTNAME $SURNAME match be enough or do they want the whole $FIRSTNAME $2NDNAME $3RDNAME $SURNAME thing I have in my bank's files?

I'm off to write some stupid questions to them...

Bank related amusement

I went to open that bank account today and learnt interesting things about certain Finnish bank.

It took me fifteen minutes to learn that

1. They don't open accounts without making an appointment. (How smart is that?!)
2. I can't open an account, one without any credit options (card etc.), to their bank because my credit history is not flawless.

I understand that they have right to choose their customers, but denying an account based on the fact that person has nasty mark in her credit history?! An account without any credit. I'd have understood if I had walked in and asked for loan...
Well, I headed to my old bank (one I have had account in for about eight years (I changed to them because my previous bank lost their customer service's quality somewhere)) and ten minutes later I was out of door, all the paper work done, my new account in good working order in every possible way and in two weeks I'll receive Visa Electron for said account.

It's always nice to know that some people have eye for business - and room for little, low-income /me as their customer. And it makes one wonder business principles of certain companies...

Don't you just love...

...those prewritten customer service replies?

I contacted PayPal's customer service because my bank account was in my old, and now deleted, account's files, and even I have deleted that account days ago I can't add it to my current account because PP's system claims it is in use...
So, to make me suitably annoyed I received email from PP where they adviced me to delete my old account, and guided how to do it... But, I had clearly stated that I already have done it.

Is it that difficult to actually read what your customer tries to tell you?

Of course I could always be mean and just simply open a new bank account. It'd save great deal of fuss, taking that I choose either one of the banks which have their offices in my suburb...

I have a dream...

... and... the light is green!

I had a chat with "rehabilitation counsellor" today (I had an appointment) and she said that as long as it is not an official business I can do it. I can do it if I am part-time freelance designer... You know... I can do it! Gosh, I feel so, so, so good!
The thing is that our legislation doesn't allow unemployed person to have any kind of official business, as in their books you are a business owner and therefore you have a job. End of case.

But, this is where "freelancing" comes in: if it's occasional, if it's not official business, if it doesn't prevent you taking a job if one's offered to you... you are allowed to do it. It falls in selling your own products at a market place category, according to her - and of course I agree.
Tax authorities don't give a d*mn as long my sales don't exceed 8?00 €/ a - and if they ever exceed that I should consider making it official as my income would be big enough to make it (with some help from SII (as my income would still be low enough to receive housing allowance))...

And to continue on good news, or positive possibilities... if I get official report from my doctor that I can't practise my profession SII will most likely pay me another degree. In second level (we have ~three levels: mandatory school, second level and third level (university and its kind)) though, but it's a start. It would mean housing allowance and rehabilitation allowance, plus, as far as I know, welfare officials shouldn't have any reason to nag about me applying for my monthly allowance from them...
In other words: my income wouldn't be any better it is now, but it would be enough as it would be secure. I would get the allowance from two to three full years without any questions.

I have my next appointment in April, but she recommended that I'll make an appointment with vocational guidance counsellor to clear few things - and according to the RC VGC's opinion is greatly appreciated when SII makes the decision will one get full government support for one's studies...

What can I say? Oh mi gosh! Things may get better... really.

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I'm surprised... I've been shopping (1., 2. and 3.), paid rent, been eating... and I still have money. About twice as much I've usually at this phase of the month.
It makes one wonder what I've forgot...

Finished projects count for this year is...

31, at the moment. Pain-In-The-Hiney is finished, but lacks some final touches of its final finishing.

Aww! ^^

Now, this is cute: Double Knit Mini Christmas Stocking Ornament

Which Classic Female Literature Character Am I?

Snatched from Bea.

(...from Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen.)

Click.

Yup, that's me.

In other news I think I know what causes loss of appetite in my case: stress.
Economy crisis in other words. I've been quite a mess couple of days, and forgetting to eat hasn't improved my general feeling at all (yesterday would have been really bad day without certain news I heard from Wolfie, or without him in general).
Haven't been that cranky actually, but very tired and withdrawn.

I hate it when bureaucrats have control over my life, and I've no money. Had to borrow money from my father to pay my rent...
And no light in the end of the tunnel before next week. Keep your thumbs up that instance A processes my 'application' fast - though person who's job it is wont be at work before Tuesday...

And in addition to that I think I had one of my premonitions last night. It wasn't bad dream in that sense, or foreseeing destruction or anything like that (like they have used to be), but it was annoying.
I'll tell more about it in case one person contacts me in near future. Just to say 'did I say something about this?'.

Money, money, money...

I got email from my mother. I should get some extra money during this year from certain insurance my parents took to protect me when I was a kid (if my mom had died before my 18th birthday I'd have got some financial compensation - in addition to government provided financial support). She called to bankrupt's estate of that insurance company and they had said so. And I say 'Great thing'.
Actually I've got 80% of that saved amount (as my mom is very much alive) when I was 21(?), so I'll get 'only' 20%, but I think it's still about 200€ (or more).
Honestly, I could use that money right now, as I need at least (note to self: call about it when voice gets better) hepatitis vaccination (it's recommended) and I need sandals and/ or general summer shoes (and I could use some new clothes, and visit to barbers and... stage fever? How so? O_o). And, when going to country X (Aren't I mean? Not telling it...) with Tourist Visa Exemption (as a Finn I don't need a visa if I stay in the country less than 30 days) authorities assume I have cash - in fact they assume I have quite much of it. (Which reminds me, local Finnish embassy hasn't answered to my question yet... which is not very nice.)
And next month is actually financially tight one for me in any case. But well, I'll survive. I have to.

One of these days...

In fact it begun last night when I accidentally poured water over my keyboard. In the morning I realized that some symbols with Ctrl+ Alt command just don't work. Arrow keys don't work that well either... and to someone who tries to use keys to operate (instead of mouse) this is bad situation. What makes is worse is that I really don't want to spend my few euros to get a new keyboard (bus fares will take as much as new keyboard costs)...
Not to mention that square brackets don't work either and to someone who uses BB code boards as much as I do it's just plain catastrophe (In our family's BB I've no worries as it allows HTML code also).

And if that weren't enough: I woke up with my back hurting like hell. In fact it hurted so much that I felt it in my dream. It hurted so much that I cried of pain in that dream. (It was an interesting dream btw. A. was moving back to India and he wanted to meet me for the last time. We talked about interesting things... in a way it was quite odd dream - and every time when I have saw a dream about him he has contacted me, so have to see.)

But something good: my latest cycle was 52 days, but at least my body works a bit. Yes, just plain crazy: "Whippee, I'm menstruating."

.

Yes, I should be sleeping, but I came to pay my rent as I realized that I've got more money today. It's bit cumbersome to get money twice per month after you've used to get money only once a month. For some reason it seems to be more difficult to handle. Nowadays it feels that I don't have any money, ever.

On the other hand one reason why it seems that I don't afford anything nowadays is my allergy. My monthly grocery bill is ~60 euros higher than it used to be when I was still allergy-free (at least I was able to keep my expenses low when I was vegetarian).

Outlook.

My blog's look has changed again, and so has my default pic. I can't help it, but my current pic is quite suitable for someone with this nickname.