SBQ; Stitching 'on the go'

Today's

Stitching Bloggers Question

is

"Do you stitch 'on the go'? (On the commute to and from work, during your lunch break, waiting for the kids, etc.) If so, do you have a specific "travel" project or do you just grab whatever you happen to be working on and take it with you?"

Well, it really depends. I don't take stitching with me if I know I don't have to sit/ travel at least one hour without disturbances.
If I take a project with me it's something small(ish), and not too complex as it's dreadful task to handle gazillion skeins in on the go circumstances.

But then, quite a bit of Devil Bears dungarees was stitched on a ferry ride from Helsinki to Tallinn, and back. (And believe me, people gave quite long glances when I stitched on those trips:

1. Stitching is not something young people do, as we know...
2. I use black clothes -> I got to be some Satan worshipper... (I don't even believe in Satan, how could I possibly worship one?)
3. I've 'traditionally feminine' short hair, which seems to be in some sort of conflict with some stereotypes...
4. It's devil anyway and therefore maybe not most common theme in cross stitching...)

Ok, confession to make

Ha! Angela knows how to do her maths. No wonder she's studying accounting.

[*coughs*]

I think I'll reveal it some day by accident anyway so I may as well tell why I was in that little pink cloud yesterday...
I'd say that there's someone who caused it, and will hopefully cause many, many silliness attacks in the future. (Anyone guesses why I purchased this? Am I teen or am I teen?)

I broke a promise I made to myself (some time ago) about not losing my marbles because of someone I've never actually met... but now... Well, erm, at least we do live in same planet so it'll happen - some day, hopefully.

I know that it's a risk, huge one, but then... not taking a risk is also about taking a risk.

/me waves to [...] (As I know you'll read this. )

I think it was mostly in there. I just needed to get it out of my mind, and attain official lunatic status in eyes of my beloved readers. (And I think that certain family members will think I haven't learned anything, but hey... they should know I'm incurable.)

Que sera, sera...

Moment of drooling

Let me introduce you, stash Christine gave

1. Caron Collection Wildflowers; 0021 Peach Melba
2. Caron Collection Soie Cristale; 2001 Cherry
3. Crescent Colours; Apple Fritter
4. Dragon Floss Saying it with Thread; Love & Laughter

Rest of it went to international mailing. *sigh* But stash is stash, no matter what.

No Saliant today even I wished to be able to work with it... well. It happens even in the best of the families, and with smaller amounts of painkillers.

Pink cloud just got bigger!

I just got mail from Stitching Bits and Bobs that Christine, who is my Adopt-A-Stitcher 'mommy' has bought me $20 gift certificate!

I see a shopping spree in coming minutes!

This has really been good email day!

/me is happy, happy, happy!

I'll just sit here... in this comfortable pink fuzzy cloud of mine. ^^

I've to say that even there has been major S. Hole of a migraine, and almost intolerable pains in my ovaries, which means that I have actually just vegetated last days, this week could not have begun better.

Yes, I've lost my marbles, but I feel great. ^^

Most of you don't know why, and I need my secrets. At least at this moment... I want to cherish this feeling I haven't experienced in ages.
Part of me doesn't want to allow myself to feel this... happy, but I know I've to enjoy it now. I've to take it as it is.

I like this cloud. I'd hate to lose it.

Couple of lines

Sometimes you just got to check lyrics of a song you hear...

I don't know why
The sky is so blue

was why I wanted to know...

- - -
But somewhere dreams come true
- - -
But there will be a place for you
And every time you look that way
I would lay down my life for you
- - -
But some are going to make you cry
And I don't know how
But I will get you by, I will try
They're not trying to cause you pain
They're just afraid of loving you
- - -

What was my point? I know it, I know all of my points, but I'd win Nobel prize if I were as good with words as I'd like to be - lately I have had use for such talent, but I've to survive with this I've.

Good night my faithful readers

Let me introduce you...

Inspirational (available for active members, like chatty /me) freebie from Linabear BB. Quite cute. ^^

In fact it reminds me of these two

Ronja and Neko have somewhat perfect relationship, and it's going strong as ever after four years of sheer bliss. ^^ (In their case it's really 'til death do us apart situation)

To be honest I tried to sleep, but something (or someone to be honest... and not actually person in question, but my mind kept me awake... you know....) kept me awake so I decided to use my time in productive way and finished those kitties.
Maybe I should try again... sleeping, I mean.

(Partially cross posted to lb_bb_gallery.)

/me is *so* bored

This one seems to be one of those migraines which actually try to get me spend time in my bed... Dizziness is not fun, and in addition to that my head begun to hurt as I, well, laughed my hiney off because of certain mail I got.
Nothing against that though - laughing (nor that mail, very much opposite to be honest). Anything which lifts up my mood in day like this is always very welcomed.

While laying in bed I read latest Cross Stitcher (came today; and btw, Angela: Silkweaver parcel came too. Now I just need to get those dyes, and maybe I'll send something some day... ) and I found something I can agree with:

"Dear Lord, so far today I'm doing ok.
I haven't gossiped, lost my temper, been greedy, grumpy, nasty, selfish, or self-indulgent.
I haven't whined, complained, cursed or eaten any chocolate.
But I'll be getting out of bed in a minute, I think I'll really need your help then!"

And while laying in bed getting bored I noticed something which I dislike: as I've lost weight (/me cheers) my arms are getting visibly muscular (at least my biceps have gotten smaller, they were problem last spring)...
I know they'll fade away sooner or later (at least I hope so), but I really dislike it anyway.

So, anyone in desperate need of some muscles? But then... it makes it easier, to actually have relatively good share of muscles in your body as

1. I wont look saggy
2. It means that part of that weight I have is actually weight of these 'Arnolds' of mine
3. And they'll get smaller during time -> decreases weight even more.

But then... I sense need to get new clothes soon. I also sense being even more "too femininely build" for designers (My waist is at least 6cms too narrow to "fit" with my hip, according to "fittings", even at this point. What will it be..?) which causes sense of panic.

Btw, three months from this moment I'm 27 years young/ old. Scary.

Woohoo!

-2 kilos! Without doing anything.

Devil's cake seems to be part of a healthy diet... guess what I munched last night to cure my moodiness?

In other news, my head is still acting up.

*sigh*

(Hmh, that seems to be very common word for me nowadays. Anyway...)

I just hate these migraines which keep you awake whole night - no matter how tired you're - and in addition to that, just to make it fun, you get these blues attacks, and only thing you'd actually like to do would be laying in bed feeling someone's arms around you, and same someone's breathe on your neck.

Blah.

Well, at least I've done some stitching, but I'd prefer to sleep - but then... if my dreams are similar to last night... I'm not sure.
Had this odd dream where someone followed me and repeated one sentence: I love you... and I whacked that someone with a huge paddle every time one said it.
It was odd, and easily explained - I hope. I'm afraid of hearing those words because they have brought pain in past, and just to avoid future pain I need to hurt one who loves me... human mind is great invention.

Greetings from last millenium

I found few writings of mine while bulldozing things to their rightful places and for some reason I had to (and as I tend to act on impulse...) translate part of one:

6th of November, 1999

"...Darkness of the night veils evil burrowing inside of me, like it'd want to forgive me.

Forgive what? That evil doesn't come from me. Unbeat* of my heart came with life, thereon there has only been silence. Like a ghost deep in my soul. Absorbing sounds into depths of eternity.

Nevertheless I love silence. I blend into truth like tears to the sea.
I'm real only for a moment, then I'll hide in myself, just to come back in following sleepless night."

Depression had it's advantages. Like being able to write. But then... I prefer to be me, who-I-am-now me.

---

* Word which is impossible to translate with my English skills: lyömättömyys (...sydämeni lyömättömyys...). Lack of beating. Dead state, to be exact.

I think I'm in love

... with Teresa Wentzler designs.

Saliant is so fast to stitch! I've been vegetating, reading, doing household chores, growing one person's phone bill excessively (I'm expensive hobby - and my throat is killing me. Either for excessive talking or because I have forgot how to speak English without straining my vocal chords) and stitched only a short while and I've got this far

Legs and part of Saliant's tail (excuse that blurriness/ darkness). Ah, I see happy dance during this month.

Christine, I'm in love with this one already!
Why, oh why haven't I stitched this before? (Though I know why: I thought it's difficult because it's gorgeous... since when this has been difficult? But then... haven't got into blending yet.)

And back to business

After threatening Christine with a whip - and I thought it was well hidden behind my back - she was nice enough to reveal April's Broaden Your Stitching Horizon theme, which is... Fantasy!
So, I've been browsing trough my freebies (I prefer to waste my money on floss and fabrics at this moment ) and I think it'll be Dragon Saliant

Bold, strong thing, and I like it. Maybe I've to do this as a reminder: Keep your head up high, it's only life. (And it'll be my first Wentzler.)

And while browsing around I think I found my 24 hour challenge piece too. Not any of the Christmyths, but from Dragon Dreams anyway: Dragon of Hope (it's just so... I don't know. I'm sucker for hope.), or The Dragon of Water (just because I happen to be water sign (Don't know where that came, but well... in that day when I get myself completely I'm ready to die - it's going to be long life for me )).

Nothing to see here

I think I've, once again, one more reason to dislike spring: I seem to lose my sense of hunger in these months of excessive natural light. This happened last year, and it happens now.
And now it can't be explained with long-distance relationship nor sudden change of diet. It has to be spring.

It wouldn't be such a problem if I haven't got this tendency for migraines. My head has been completely empty last few days, just because my blood sugar levels aren't balanced. Just because I'm to feel hunger at this moment and therefore I simply forget to eat...

And in addition to that

...spring makes me very silly in certain sense... *sigh*
Nothing against having silly thoughts about half of the world's population, but I really dislike my brains subconscious urge to find a relationship.
Though, one would be nice, but for the right reasons and not just because. As I'm getting quite tired with all that hassle...
I know what I want, but it scares most people. And even I know I've no need for anyone who can't accept me as I am... it does bother me. I don't want to be scary because I'm me, because I'm not simple.

I think that we all have faced situation where people around you wonder why you're single and still you just can't seem to be interesting enough... maybe it's being too interesting? Or intimidating, as I've heard.

So, because I think things like this I can say I have got over him. Something good in everything - even sometimes it might be nicer to bathe in heartbreak sea instead of wade in swamps of singledom.

^^

Well well well... it seems to me that I've been RAKed by one person. In case I'm not delirious, which might explain it...
I noticed today that my status has changed from general user to subscriber in Last.Fm. Though I don't say I know anything before I get reply from him... but I've to say that You-Know-Who-You-Are made my day. (/me bows)

In other news, I've got addicted to online chess, even my problem of not being able to "see" that board properly stills.
I think it's impossible to understand before you've played IRL with me, as I need to adjust things a bit even then - but after it I'm quite good (if I'm in the mood of being good). At least for someone who has no interest towards theory of chess. (Talking of chess... Click.)

I meant to celebrate my divorce day with some wine, but for some reason I think I've no need for that... And anyway Dan will visit me next week, so celebration will be done then. (And I'll get my laptop!)

Booking Trough Thursdays

Once again I've few weeks worth... From eldest to latest.

Booking Trough Thursday

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Today's questions were suggested by Christine.

1. How do you decide to read a book by an author you haven't read before?

   Same thing which works with every book I'm considering to read: if I like the idea I'll read it. That's why I always consult backs of books, that's why I rarely buy books from anywhere else than bookstore.

2. What sort of recommendations count most highly in making that decision?

   I don't trust recommendations in general. But in case someone who has similar taste to mine recommends something I may give it a change.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Pick one of your favorite authors.

1. What are some of your favorite books by this author?

   Well, mr. King, again. I love most of his books, but I'd say The Dark Tower (I may have referred it as Black Tower before, but this is what happens when you read translated books...) series as it was pleasant surprise. I'm not that much in actual fantasy, and therefore it took quite some time before I actually read first book from this series, but since then I've been hooked.
   In some phase I was afraid that mr. King never will finish this series, but I was wrong. Which is good.

2. Why do you like this author?

   /me consults blog
   "I love King because his mind is as twisted as mine is - he writes like I'd like to be able to write (and he writes like my mind works)."

3. Have you read everything by this author? Why or why not?

   No I haven't. He's too productive. And I'm too broke. Most Kings I've are bought by my mother - it's easy for her, when ever there's new translated King in stores she buys two of them. One for me, one for my brother. She hadn't got actual gift giving problems with me since 2000.

Goal check

It's April soon (where did the time went?) so it's time for goal check.

March goals were

1. "Stitch and finish needleroll for Spring needleroll exchange".
2. "This month's Broaden Your Stitching Horizon theme is folk/ whimsical and I'm in even folksy isn't my thing in general. Mosey'N'Me has couple of freebies I'll choose from."
3. "Start next Silhouette in 10th of March."

Well, this is what I actually did

1. Needleroll is finished and mailed.
2. Stitching horizon got broader.
3. Jaffa is still untouched.
4. Stitched parts III and IV of MSAL, but I'm three parts behind!

And then,

what do I want to do in April?

1. Stitch lacking parts of MSAL and try to stay in schedule
2. 24 hour challenge
3. Stitch-A-Thon
4. Broaden Your Stitching Horizon
5. Start with Jaffa, preferably finish it.
6. Decide design, fabric, flosses, stitch and finish biscornu for an exchange

Would that be enough for me? I think it's so.

So, how has it been?

Tomorrow I've been Miss Peri for a year. And to be honest, I don't regret it a bit. Getting divorce, I mean.

Fact is that since we broke up my heart has come to almost it's normal self again - though I doubt it'll ever be as good as it used to be. But it has it's use.
I had these bad arrhythmias during last months of our relationship. So bad that I laid in bed two days because I had no strength to sit nor stand. Only things I could do were sleeping, eating beta blockers and being afraid of having a heart which just would stop agreeing with me some day.
Anyway, I was only 24. You shouldn't have heart problems in that age, should you?

But since we broke-up I have found a friend from Dan. Someone who supports even my insane ideas. Someone who will, in the end, be there for me if I need.
Of course my family would be there too, if I'd let them, but I don't. I've always been secretive, and for some reason I've always tried to keep my family out of my problems. I'm too proud in certain things, I know it.

Even it's year from our divorce it's over two years from our decision to separate. Or more like my decision, he just had to agree. It was our decision when he realised that I wont take my words back, but it took some months.

Two relationships after it. Both failed. Which I don't understand in certain sense, even I know why those things happened.
I just had to learn with hard way what I really want from a partner.
During this year I've heard certain question few times: How you can be single? How can you be, with that/ those personality/ looks/ brains..?
I had no answer for that, but I think I know... I know myself. I'm quirky. And I know I ask quite much. But I know there's someone, and someone is enough, as long as I find him. I only need that one person to love me, to love.

They say second marriages have best possibilities for success. I really hope so, as, being an romantic idiot, I want to get married again.
Some people wonder it, as they see divorce as a failure of institution called marriage. I just see it as failure of a relationship, failure of both counterparts.
Even people usually don't see me as a marrying kind I'm such a person. I'm sucker for devotion, safety, being protected by gazillion laws... and it brings even more safety in case you've children.

But to be honest. I don't wonder why people think I'm not marrying kind. I'm not quite traditional person, I speak my mouth, I don't allow anyone to degrade me (at least I try not). And I never even thought of really getting married before Dan proposed me (I said yes, because I knew I'd have lost him otherwise - and then, I thought him as my husband, after 8 months). So, in certain sense it's his fault that I became one.

I think I should say something wise, but I can't. I'm in love with Wolves of the Calla and I'll get off to bed with it.

It's a carrot! No, it's a bunny!

I made it! *dancing around*

Without any further talking, let me introduce you Spring Surprise from Mosey'n'Me

This is really something out of my genre, but... darned, I like this little fellow! Cute little bunny, isn't it?

I'm planning to finish it as a needlebook, but I've to see do I've suitable fabric in my small stash. And I need to buy some felt...

Anyway, this was really broadening my horizon, and it was successful even though I had minor problems with that carrot. Just because it's a huge block of colour - fortunately I was wise enough to stitch it with GASTs. It'd have been dreadful project with regular cotton.

How Quirky Am I?

Your Quirk Factor: 79%

You're so quirky, it's hard for you to tell the difference between quirky and normal.
No doubt about it, there's little about you that's "normal" or "average."

How Quirky Are You?