TRN's monthly Stitch-A-Thon is in coming weekend so it's time to set some goals. This is my plan:
... and... the light is green!
I had a chat with "rehabilitation counsellor" today (I had an appointment) and she said that as long as it is not an official business I can do it. I can do it if I am part-time freelance designer... You know... I can do it! Gosh, I feel so, so, so good!
The thing is that our legislation doesn't allow unemployed person to have any kind of official business, as in their books you are a business owner and therefore you have a job. End of case.
But, this is where "freelancing" comes in: if it's occasional, if it's not official business, if it doesn't prevent you taking a job if one's offered to you... you are allowed to do it. It falls in selling your own products at a market place category, according to her - and of course I agree.
Tax authorities don't give a d*mn as long my sales don't exceed 8?00 €/ a - and if they ever exceed that I should consider making it official as my income would be big enough to make it (with some help from SII (as my income would still be low enough to receive housing allowance))...
And to continue on good news, or positive possibilities... if I get official report from my doctor that I can't practise my profession SII will most likely pay me another degree. In second level (we have ~three levels: mandatory school, second level and third level (university and its kind)) though, but it's a start. It would mean housing allowance and rehabilitation allowance, plus, as far as I know, welfare officials shouldn't have any reason to nag about me applying for my monthly allowance from them...
In other words: my income wouldn't be any better it is now, but it would be enough as it would be secure. I would get the allowance from two to three full years without any questions.
I have my next appointment in April, but she recommended that I'll make an appointment with vocational guidance counsellor to clear few things - and according to the RC VGC's opinion is greatly appreciated when SII makes the decision will one get full government support for one's studies...
What can I say? Oh mi gosh! Things may get better... really.
A challenge to get me back to reading, as I have been dreadfully lazy on that matter last two years.
Pick 12 books - one for each month of 2007 - that you've been wanting to read (have been on your "To Be Read" list) for 6 months or longer, but haven't gotten around to.And my list (in no particular order) - original names in parenthesis:
Starting January 1, 2007, read one of these books from your list each month, ending December 31, 2007.
By the end of the year you should've knocked 12 books off of your TBR list!
TAST
Haven't forgot that! I just need to get myself going with it, all those biscornus just are too tempting to be left alone, even for a day - or few hours.
I've been wondering quite some time why I still have frequent dreams of Wolfie... they are not bad or sad dreams, but he's only person who frequents in my dreams so I find it rather curious. Or maybe it really takes this long for my mind to process myself over him. Who knows.
It also seems that that cortisone treatment had some effect on my moods, as now, when I'm on the lowest dose (last pill is waiting...) I'm actually getting to more hopeful mood, and my rhythm seemed to get back to normal in one day (woke up yesterday after 3PM, get back to bed after 9 PM, woke up ~2:30 AM).
And my ovaries haven't been hurting at all.
So, I am one (relatively) happy camper again, though one thing bothers me... I designed this gorgeous biscornu in my dreams and I can't remember how it looked like!
Allergy
My dermatologist called day before yesterday, and he booked some more tests for me. That means that little /me goes to condom shopping when she gets the appointment scheduled - as I have got symptoms from latex condoms, and as my previous tests didn't gave positive for latex allergy this is the next thing to do... it's possible that I'll get another round of epicutane. (Fun!..)
Pherreting: Week Fifty Five
Our word for this week is: Drop.
Admittedly I was thinking of completely different kind of picture, but I found something from my Photobucket which actually suits... (Ooh, suits you sir!)
These beauties from my Thailand trip fall under Jaw drop. I think I was trying to enter Imageshack and/or Quirkyalone BB when I got these, in two separate occasions. So, pornography and national security in my hiney guys...
Today's
is:
Have you had a happy dance yet this year? If so, tell us about it! (Or just point to the entry that talks about it.) If not, when do you predict it will be?I have had two of them: 'Flowers of the Winter' was first and 'Sprouts' came second. Next happy dance is either SBEBB's Valentine Exchange or biscornu for TRN's Biscornu Exchange - depending on which one I'll be stitching next.
Let me tell you... the biscornu I'm stitching for TRN's Biscornu Exchange is going to be a real babe.
Stitched with luscious burgundy DMC on wonderful hand-dyed Belfast linen from Silkweaver, design being one of my latest brain blurbs (exchanges are wonderful way to combine models and having fun)... all this equals The Biscornu.
Anyway
I was laying in bed, trying to fall asleep after this rather sh*tty day, and I remembered something I said in autumn: "coming winter will be hard one".
It is, it has been, and it'll be. And I see things happening, things which happened last year at the same time... that makes me hopeless at present, it gives me hope for better in spring, that makes me be afraid of the summer. (And still, if I could be loved like that... I might do it just for the sake of it.)
I also realised how good it was for me to have N. around, and I miss having someone like him in my life. I miss being hold when I fall asleep, being adored, having someone around, even if it was only few days per month, even if it wasn't a relationship.
But FWBs are like relationships, good ones are difficult to come by. And even I can see the good sides in being single I have moments when I hate and despise it more than anything... moments when I really doubt that I'm asking Moon from the sky.
Angela received her parcel from The Birthday Fairy (few days late, fairy was a bad fairy) so, lo and behold, picture(s) of the last finish for 2006!
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TNT: I had already forgot whole thing... Do you know what this little thing does?
...now only thing I need is suitable adapter and I'll get rid of that annoying cable which hangs in HP's hiney... (Yes, shock and awe, it is white, but it was free. *grin*)
SIL: By the way, I'm beginning to doubt that SIL reads my blog. She has been using $NAME-2-BE lately... after that little rant of mine.
Cortisone: Kills. My ovaries got upset and they have tried to murder me last two days... I had already forgot how much something can hurt.
Official YouTube: o.O! (It's about 9 minutes long...)
Life gets difficult when you're, or at least try to be, ethical, or fair - or something related. But life also seems to offer solutions when you don't know what you should do to prevent conflicts, and still be able to choose that path which is better for you - or which, at least, may end up being better choice in the long run.
I think I see a new path in front of me, and all the sudden that path I used to see a little while ago doesn't seem to be as sunny it was, all the sudden it's pebbles have become rocks. All the sudden I doubt that that "old" path would eventually take me home and I might just end up hurting my toes on the rocks. Nevertheless, I'm still rather fond of that path, but sometimes things change... if they do, as they seem to, I'll go with the flow.
Broccoli might be even better name as sprouts came from a notion that part of the motif looks like a broccoli - at least when stitched with olive green floss.
I did this as an example of how whipped backstitching works in mattress finishing.
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On a scale of 1-10, how _____________ are you? (Feel free to elaborate on why you chose your answer).
It really depends on a day, but I'd say 8+.
I know I can do this and that, but because I feel that my talents go to dogs in here my confidence tends to have peaks, in both directions.
My rhythm is so messed up. Went to bed at seven o'clock (AM), woke up at four... And I blame on cortisone on the fact that I can't wake up when my cell's alarm goes off (it also ruins my fingernails *sob*). Two days to go... I just hope I can get my rhythm somewhat normalized after it.
During my coma I got a SMS from TNT. They have tried to deliver a parcel... and if I guess its origin correctly I'll get something great tomorrow (I know only one person who uses TNT).
Otherwise, I have been stitching, believe it or not. I'm trying one new finishing method with a personal twist, I should get it done today (so stay tuned, there will be pictures!).
I also have two biscornus in progress, and third in planning state as I paired Biscornu Exchange participants right away when sign-ups closed last night.
I think I know what colour I'll use in my partner's biscornu, I may even know the fabric, but floss and design aren't quite clear yet.
I might stitch one of my latest ones, which seems to suit to her likings with designs (I did some bloghopping during night), but for some reason I'd love to see that particular design stitched with GASTs, and I don't have them. *sigh* Maybe I will just look out some lovely shade of $COLOR instead and stitch it as monochrome.
I say ... and you think ... ?
:: Final
And what is my Egyptian zodiac sign?
I was playing with pixels when something dawned on me: this would be much better, kicks would be greater, if I had someone dear to share them with. And the fears wouldn't be as big, green and hairy.
I lost my inspiration for the day. Fortunately I know it'll be back soon, but it doesn't help me now.
Facing everything on your own... every success, every sorrow, every ray of sun, every rainy day... it's not for me. And I really miss that bubbly little thing I become when I'm in love, I miss that strong me who I am when I'm loved as I am.
I want to have it all again...
(Btw, Periphaeria Designs has a blog - already. Am I getting prepared or am I getting prepared? *grin*)
Feast One Hundred & Twenty Six
Appetizer: What comes to mind when you see the color orange?
Oranges, sun.
Soup: Did you ever get in trouble while you were in school? If so, what was it for?
Just ask how often... Try to be intelligent kid who questions everything, and usually knows more than her teachers. It was great fun.... not.
Salad: Which topping(s) make up your perfect pizza?
Taking that I'd eat it... anyway, mozzarella or spinach pizzas are quite ok.
Main Course: Do you believe in UFOs/aliens/etc.? Why or why not?
If I throw something you can't recognise it is an U.F.O. so why wouldn't I believe in them? *grin*
When it comes to possible intelligent lifeforms out there.... one can only hope. Here's none, that's for sure (except cats, dolphins and white mice).
Dessert: What color is your bedspread/comforter/quilt?
Don't use bedspread (sloppy, yes). And the colour of comforter depends on what you mean with it - as my dictionary gives two different possibilities...
In other news
Just waiting when that cortisone causes that promised insomnia. 16 hours awake, 10 hours sleep.... that begins to sound like normal person's life.
You know, it feels great to receive encouragement from several people according to that little dream of mine.
I've spent whole day thinking of little things like website design (I think I'll go with very ascetic HTML based, as I can do it by myself - and I dislike cluttery sites), worrying over losing my creative streak again and all sort of silly stuff like that.
But I know that I want to try it.
At the moment only possible barrier in my way is the opinion of employement officials as you never know what they think. I will still be able to get a day job so it shouldn't be an issue, and I present it as a way to prevent me losing my mind - and if they think it in long run it may also get me out of their statistics...
If it is just a hobby...
TAST
Stitch of the week is buttonhole stitch. It should be easy, and I am sure it is... I just doubt that it is too easy. I have piles of ideas, but for some reason those stitches don't want to co-operate with me.
I think I'll see about it again over the weekend and spend my time stitching, dreaming and trying to get my design ideas to work in suitable medias.
I think I like that name, even though original name was plainly flowers. Anyhow, we have a happy dance! (Though the picture could be better.)
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