Meme; A Day In History

While waiting some files to be transferred from my laptop to bits_2_whole's I was checking blog updates and found this from chanda_m's blog:

"Go to Wikipedia and look up your birth day (excluding the year). List three neat facts, two births and one death in your journal, including the year."

And here they come!

3rd of July

Facts
1. 1848 - Slaves are freed in the Danish West Indies (now U.S. Virgin Islands).
2. 2004 - Official opening of Bangkok's subway system.
3. 2005 - The national law legalizing same-sex marriage takes effect in Spain.

Births
1. 1442 - Emperor Go-Tsuchimikado of Japan (d. 1500)
2. 1883 - Franz Kafka, Czech writer (d. 1924)

Death
1. 1971 - Jim Morrison, American singer (The Doors) (b. 1943)

Allow me to broaden this a bit... What happened when I born?

Fact
1979 - US President Jimmy Carter signs the first directive for secret aid to the opponents of the pro-Soviet regime in Kabul.

Birth
1979 - snowprincipessa

Death
1979 - Louis Durey, French composer (b. 1888)

OMGz0r! It's 2nd weekend of April!

Which actually came as a surprise even to Nancy, organizer of 24 hour challenge (at Friends Gather). So, I'm not only one who seems to be bit lost with time sometimes. Good to know.

Well, as I have previously mentioned I'll do Dragon of Hope, freebie from Dragon Dreams.
Though I'll change colour of dragon from violet (not bad colour, but I've my reason to change it) to deep red. Why? Because it carries Earth on it's lap and I just think that shades of blue and violet may be bit too close to each others - just blame my degree. People with designing related education may have odd opinions about colours.
In other words, I want to make Earth visible. And for some reason I just see that dragon red.

In fact I have something stitching related I'd want to blog about, but at this moment my head is suffering from excessive sleeping or lack of caffeine. My frontal lobe is levitating somewhere over my head, so I'll leave that to later.

From Bleh to Goodie etc.

For some reason Silkweaver's shopping system has heard about my promise to ditch them for time being... as I can't place and order. It just never seems to get into Thank for your order page - and I'd so want some natural linen stitch bands from them...

*few seconds pass*

Power of complaining! Hallelujah, thank you G-d! Baruch Hashem! (And other suitable sentences...)
It went trough after I ranted a bit.
So, lovelies flying over Atlantic soon (though I could use one lovely, which you can't get from SW)!

Yes, broke my promise to myself about not ordering anything from SW, but as it's not only decision I have 'broke' (I'd prefer to use term decided to change because of a good reason) lately no one notices. And I couldn't resist those stitch bands... and red Belfast linen (and red Jubilee).
I can stop this any day... shopping.

From computers to biology

Laptop is finally at home! Dan has left the building, unlike it was supposed to be, he decided to be with his better half (they're quite cute couple, btw). But I'm not actually complaining. My menses are coming and I am so sore... I can't concentrate on being my nice self. I just seem to want to be complaining bit... erm, person few days (and I dislike pain you can't kill with painkillers... ouch)
In fact it seems to me that my inattentivity increases in this phase of my cycle, not to mention those other autistic traits (ADD and AS are both syndromes from autistic scale) I carry around. And lately it has meant that I'm even more autistic than I'm usually, or at least more often, just because my cycle is normalized.

NFH

Yes, it's arrived to U.S.A.. My Spring Needleroll, and it was loved (*evil laughter*) so therefore I guide you to this post.

And now, it's bed time for old cranky androgynes.

Enrolling

Wonders of IRC channels: I got the info I needed without calling to EVTEK. So, actually that application form has little unclarity in it in it's last page. Know-how(tm).

Anyway, idea is eventually have B.Eng papers in my pocket, either in Industrial Management or IT (Do I hear deep sigh?).
Which means... I need to improve my math and physics skills for the entering exams.
Or not improve, but train myself and remember what I have forgot. Though it's possible that I have to actually learn few things, but then... /me likes.

And you guys want to laugh? With some luck, and few twists in Universe, bits_2_whole will be in same study group with me (because of same surname) - if I get in (she will get in anyway, I've no doubt of it) to my first option, and if she takes that place.
That could be interesting.

Oh my, I'd like to be G-d sometimes and remove our ability to have insecurities. We just hurt people who mean most with that stuff...
But who said that life is easy? *bangs her head to the wall for while*

Btw, for reason or another there's no warm water... It was nice surprise when I was going to shower myself.
Fortunately I have family-size "water cooker". Modern day kitchen utilies can be handy sometimes.

And to make it even... ah, well, normal, I've tried to call to student office of EVTEK about certain thing my application and they just don't answer. Great.
It just happens to be last possible day to enroll so I'd really like to get the answer... though I have sent my application, there's just this thing about my degree I'm applying with.

Why not take a holiday in South East Asia this year?

Yes, why not?

• Get all those lovely vaccinations
• Be prepared to fly 'til you drop
• Stock up allergy medications and pain killers
• Provide about a ton info to worrying family members
• And dozen other things...

But what the heck, I think I'll blog Greetings from SEA some day. He seems to be willing to pay my ticket (knowing my financial status anyway) just to meet me... (And anyway I actually have time on my hands, unlike he.)
So... Yours truly may be travelling in near future (which also means no name changes in near future as I need approriate passport...).
And... I need to get thread cutter because I've to be prepared not to travel with scissors... (Well, it's either dying to boredom or stitching on a plane.)

And in other news, new reader! Yippee!
I'm very easily pleased today/ nowadays. Today especially after sleepless night and frantic SMS change with, well, you know.

SBQ; Stitching 'on the go'

Today's

Stitching Bloggers Question

is

"Do you stitch 'on the go'? (On the commute to and from work, during your lunch break, waiting for the kids, etc.) If so, do you have a specific "travel" project or do you just grab whatever you happen to be working on and take it with you?"

Well, it really depends. I don't take stitching with me if I know I don't have to sit/ travel at least one hour without disturbances.
If I take a project with me it's something small(ish), and not too complex as it's dreadful task to handle gazillion skeins in on the go circumstances.

But then, quite a bit of Devil Bears dungarees was stitched on a ferry ride from Helsinki to Tallinn, and back. (And believe me, people gave quite long glances when I stitched on those trips:

1. Stitching is not something young people do, as we know...
2. I use black clothes -> I got to be some Satan worshipper... (I don't even believe in Satan, how could I possibly worship one?)
3. I've 'traditionally feminine' short hair, which seems to be in some sort of conflict with some stereotypes...
4. It's devil anyway and therefore maybe not most common theme in cross stitching...)

Ok, confession to make

Ha! Angela knows how to do her maths. No wonder she's studying accounting.

[*coughs*]

I think I'll reveal it some day by accident anyway so I may as well tell why I was in that little pink cloud yesterday...
I'd say that there's someone who caused it, and will hopefully cause many, many silliness attacks in the future. (Anyone guesses why I purchased this? Am I teen or am I teen?)

I broke a promise I made to myself (some time ago) about not losing my marbles because of someone I've never actually met... but now... Well, erm, at least we do live in same planet so it'll happen - some day, hopefully.

I know that it's a risk, huge one, but then... not taking a risk is also about taking a risk.

/me waves to [...] (As I know you'll read this. )

I think it was mostly in there. I just needed to get it out of my mind, and attain official lunatic status in eyes of my beloved readers. (And I think that certain family members will think I haven't learned anything, but hey... they should know I'm incurable.)

Que sera, sera...

Moment of drooling

Let me introduce you, stash Christine gave

1. Caron Collection Wildflowers; 0021 Peach Melba
2. Caron Collection Soie Cristale; 2001 Cherry
3. Crescent Colours; Apple Fritter
4. Dragon Floss Saying it with Thread; Love & Laughter

Rest of it went to international mailing. *sigh* But stash is stash, no matter what.

No Saliant today even I wished to be able to work with it... well. It happens even in the best of the families, and with smaller amounts of painkillers.

Pink cloud just got bigger!

I just got mail from Stitching Bits and Bobs that Christine, who is my Adopt-A-Stitcher 'mommy' has bought me $20 gift certificate!

I see a shopping spree in coming minutes!

This has really been good email day!

/me is happy, happy, happy!

I'll just sit here... in this comfortable pink fuzzy cloud of mine. ^^

I've to say that even there has been major S. Hole of a migraine, and almost intolerable pains in my ovaries, which means that I have actually just vegetated last days, this week could not have begun better.

Yes, I've lost my marbles, but I feel great. ^^

Most of you don't know why, and I need my secrets. At least at this moment... I want to cherish this feeling I haven't experienced in ages.
Part of me doesn't want to allow myself to feel this... happy, but I know I've to enjoy it now. I've to take it as it is.

I like this cloud. I'd hate to lose it.

Couple of lines

Sometimes you just got to check lyrics of a song you hear...

I don't know why
The sky is so blue

was why I wanted to know...

- - -
But somewhere dreams come true
- - -
But there will be a place for you
And every time you look that way
I would lay down my life for you
- - -
But some are going to make you cry
And I don't know how
But I will get you by, I will try
They're not trying to cause you pain
They're just afraid of loving you
- - -

What was my point? I know it, I know all of my points, but I'd win Nobel prize if I were as good with words as I'd like to be - lately I have had use for such talent, but I've to survive with this I've.

Good night my faithful readers

Let me introduce you...

Inspirational (available for active members, like chatty /me) freebie from Linabear BB. Quite cute. ^^

In fact it reminds me of these two

Ronja and Neko have somewhat perfect relationship, and it's going strong as ever after four years of sheer bliss. ^^ (In their case it's really 'til death do us apart situation)

To be honest I tried to sleep, but something (or someone to be honest... and not actually person in question, but my mind kept me awake... you know....) kept me awake so I decided to use my time in productive way and finished those kitties.
Maybe I should try again... sleeping, I mean.

(Partially cross posted to lb_bb_gallery.)

/me is *so* bored

This one seems to be one of those migraines which actually try to get me spend time in my bed... Dizziness is not fun, and in addition to that my head begun to hurt as I, well, laughed my hiney off because of certain mail I got.
Nothing against that though - laughing (nor that mail, very much opposite to be honest). Anything which lifts up my mood in day like this is always very welcomed.

While laying in bed I read latest Cross Stitcher (came today; and btw, Angela: Silkweaver parcel came too. Now I just need to get those dyes, and maybe I'll send something some day... ) and I found something I can agree with:

"Dear Lord, so far today I'm doing ok.
I haven't gossiped, lost my temper, been greedy, grumpy, nasty, selfish, or self-indulgent.
I haven't whined, complained, cursed or eaten any chocolate.
But I'll be getting out of bed in a minute, I think I'll really need your help then!"

And while laying in bed getting bored I noticed something which I dislike: as I've lost weight (/me cheers) my arms are getting visibly muscular (at least my biceps have gotten smaller, they were problem last spring)...
I know they'll fade away sooner or later (at least I hope so), but I really dislike it anyway.

So, anyone in desperate need of some muscles? But then... it makes it easier, to actually have relatively good share of muscles in your body as

1. I wont look saggy
2. It means that part of that weight I have is actually weight of these 'Arnolds' of mine
3. And they'll get smaller during time -> decreases weight even more.

But then... I sense need to get new clothes soon. I also sense being even more "too femininely build" for designers (My waist is at least 6cms too narrow to "fit" with my hip, according to "fittings", even at this point. What will it be..?) which causes sense of panic.

Btw, three months from this moment I'm 27 years young/ old. Scary.

Woohoo!

-2 kilos! Without doing anything.

Devil's cake seems to be part of a healthy diet... guess what I munched last night to cure my moodiness?

In other news, my head is still acting up.

*sigh*

(Hmh, that seems to be very common word for me nowadays. Anyway...)

I just hate these migraines which keep you awake whole night - no matter how tired you're - and in addition to that, just to make it fun, you get these blues attacks, and only thing you'd actually like to do would be laying in bed feeling someone's arms around you, and same someone's breathe on your neck.

Blah.

Well, at least I've done some stitching, but I'd prefer to sleep - but then... if my dreams are similar to last night... I'm not sure.
Had this odd dream where someone followed me and repeated one sentence: I love you... and I whacked that someone with a huge paddle every time one said it.
It was odd, and easily explained - I hope. I'm afraid of hearing those words because they have brought pain in past, and just to avoid future pain I need to hurt one who loves me... human mind is great invention.

Greetings from last millenium

I found few writings of mine while bulldozing things to their rightful places and for some reason I had to (and as I tend to act on impulse...) translate part of one:

6th of November, 1999

"...Darkness of the night veils evil burrowing inside of me, like it'd want to forgive me.

Forgive what? That evil doesn't come from me. Unbeat* of my heart came with life, thereon there has only been silence. Like a ghost deep in my soul. Absorbing sounds into depths of eternity.

Nevertheless I love silence. I blend into truth like tears to the sea.
I'm real only for a moment, then I'll hide in myself, just to come back in following sleepless night."

Depression had it's advantages. Like being able to write. But then... I prefer to be me, who-I-am-now me.

---

* Word which is impossible to translate with my English skills: lyömättömyys (...sydämeni lyömättömyys...). Lack of beating. Dead state, to be exact.

I think I'm in love

... with Teresa Wentzler designs.

Saliant is so fast to stitch! I've been vegetating, reading, doing household chores, growing one person's phone bill excessively (I'm expensive hobby - and my throat is killing me. Either for excessive talking or because I have forgot how to speak English without straining my vocal chords) and stitched only a short while and I've got this far

Legs and part of Saliant's tail (excuse that blurriness/ darkness). Ah, I see happy dance during this month.

Christine, I'm in love with this one already!
Why, oh why haven't I stitched this before? (Though I know why: I thought it's difficult because it's gorgeous... since when this has been difficult? But then... haven't got into blending yet.)

And back to business

After threatening Christine with a whip - and I thought it was well hidden behind my back - she was nice enough to reveal April's Broaden Your Stitching Horizon theme, which is... Fantasy!
So, I've been browsing trough my freebies (I prefer to waste my money on floss and fabrics at this moment ) and I think it'll be Dragon Saliant

Bold, strong thing, and I like it. Maybe I've to do this as a reminder: Keep your head up high, it's only life. (And it'll be my first Wentzler.)

And while browsing around I think I found my 24 hour challenge piece too. Not any of the Christmyths, but from Dragon Dreams anyway: Dragon of Hope (it's just so... I don't know. I'm sucker for hope.), or The Dragon of Water (just because I happen to be water sign (Don't know where that came, but well... in that day when I get myself completely I'm ready to die - it's going to be long life for me )).

Nothing to see here

I think I've, once again, one more reason to dislike spring: I seem to lose my sense of hunger in these months of excessive natural light. This happened last year, and it happens now.
And now it can't be explained with long-distance relationship nor sudden change of diet. It has to be spring.

It wouldn't be such a problem if I haven't got this tendency for migraines. My head has been completely empty last few days, just because my blood sugar levels aren't balanced. Just because I'm to feel hunger at this moment and therefore I simply forget to eat...

And in addition to that

...spring makes me very silly in certain sense... *sigh*
Nothing against having silly thoughts about half of the world's population, but I really dislike my brains subconscious urge to find a relationship.
Though, one would be nice, but for the right reasons and not just because. As I'm getting quite tired with all that hassle...
I know what I want, but it scares most people. And even I know I've no need for anyone who can't accept me as I am... it does bother me. I don't want to be scary because I'm me, because I'm not simple.

I think that we all have faced situation where people around you wonder why you're single and still you just can't seem to be interesting enough... maybe it's being too interesting? Or intimidating, as I've heard.

So, because I think things like this I can say I have got over him. Something good in everything - even sometimes it might be nicer to bathe in heartbreak sea instead of wade in swamps of singledom.